This Is What I'm Thankful For
As 2018 reaches its’ end, I have began to reflect on the last year of my life. And let me tell you, the difference a year can make is astronomical. Current Chaz is in a completely different mental space than last year’s Chaz.
I want to take time to express gratitude for the many factors and people that have brought me to where I am today.
I started to get really emotional around my birthday last month. The thought of where I was at that time last year compared to today made me feel like a different person. I will never forget going to my annual wellness exam last October, just a few days after my 28th birthday. In the nicest way possible, my doctor brought it to my attention that my lack of self-care was having a negative effect on my physical well-being. She expressed concerns about my weight because I was thinner than usual. I actually had to do a bunch of blood tests to make sure nothing was wrong. My doctor also questioned my mental health, which was not the best. And sadly, I hadn’t even considered it a problem until she mentioned it. I left that appointment extremely scared, sad, and confused.
I haven’t talked much about my 2017 to anyone, but it was by far the most challenging year of my life. From start to finish. To be real- it was awful. I was struggling on the inside and outside. But oddly enough, I am thankful for that time. I learned many valuable lessons about myself and life in general. It inspired my wellness journey and desire to focus on self-care. I’ve learned how to create, maintain, and protect my peace of mind. And I even became inspired to start this blog!
My main goal for 2018 was to become the best version of myself. Because I spent the previous year feeling as if I was failing in all aspects of life. Seriously. All of them. 2018 has been a life changing year for me. I am so thankful for my growth over the last year.
So many people were a vital part of my healing and have no clue what they did for me. I am so thankful for my loving and supportive family and friends. My beautiful daughter. My supportive husband. My parents who love me unconditionally. My siblings who I can always count on for a good laugh. And my extended family that always has my back. I am thankful to have friends that I can go months without seeing or talking to, yet we can reconnect with no problem.
Everyone that reads Love, Chaz. From the bottom of my heart, I am thankful for you. You guys keep me going.
I encourage you to let the special people in your life know how much they mean to you.