Why I Can't Follow My Passion

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I’ve read so many articles about “following your passion” or “how to turn your passion into a career”. Sure, I would love to turn my passion into a career. But first, I'll need to figure out what my passion is. When I read articles like this, I feel like I'm stuck on step #0.  Why don't I have a passion? How do I find my passion? 


For the last two years, “find my passion” was on my list of yearly goals. I was so determined. Because everybody has a passion, right? There has to be something wrong with me. I don’t even have a hobby. I like to watch Netflix in my free time. I get very passionate about binge watching a good series. Does that count?


As I wrote out my 2018 goals, the first to come to mind was the same goal that I failed to accomplish in 2016 and 2017. "Find my passion". Sadly, I was not any closer to my passion than I was two years ago. Should I take another shot at it in 2018?


I decided to take a break from chasing my passion this year. Maybe I don’t have one. And I think that’s okay. A passion does not define who you are. And it certainly is not a measurement of achievement or success.


I'm envious of people that know exactly what they want in life.  I'm almost 30 and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. For a long time, I was down on myself for not having life figured out. But I've learned to look at the bigger picture and truly admire the beauty of my life. This year I am focusing on enjoying my lovely life, instead of obsessing over what I'm lacking. 


Do you think it's possible to seek a passion or is it something that comes naturally? Please share your thoughts.